"If I'm told that the road to my glorious destination is marred by loose rocks and potholes, every jolt along the way reminds me that I'm on the right road." from Chuck Swindoll's commentary on Romans - author's name not mentioned.
Jesus was hardcore. That's all I can think as I wrestle with the fact that although the spirit of Christ lives in me, I am unlike Him. The past two weeks have been weird. I've started to post several times and then have stopped because I can't express or explain what I'm feeling. Chuck Swindoll's commentary has opened my mind to the reality of grace and the resulting responsibility and all of a sudden I feel like I've been thrown in the fire for testing. "Let's see how filled with my grace you are Erika - ok go!"
Disappointment, exhaustion, oppression, unmet expectations, anger, contempt, fury, surprise, ridicule, and conflict, are just some of the things I've dealt with these past two weeks and I am tired. I don't know how He did it. I don't know how Jesus held it together and didn't just bust loose on those who opposed Him. I don't know how He handled junk so calmly, shrewdly and intelligent - my emotions bog me down every time.
Did I mention that I'm also battling ants? And that 2 hours ago, the HVAC unit started leaking and now my lower level is soaked? This morning however, I remembered that Jesus is on the throne and God is in charge of everything so this season will pass. Right now though, I'm going to squash more bugs - my kids think I'm a little "too happy looking" when I do that - and then I'm going to soak up more water.
Oh yeah. Tomorrow, I'll tell you how not five minutes ago, I had the pleasure of being verbally abused by my neighbor. Thank God, tomorrow is another day.
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Happy to see your post.
Roks and potholes have filled my path of late as well, so thank you for reminding me that I am on the right road.
Look forward to hearing more....
Posted by: Leslie | 07/20/2010 at 05:42 PM